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| I understand that a person who could cheat, fuck around and even have threesome (or have the intention) right after break up is not worth being a friend with and is actually disgusting. I was just so naive in the beginning, believing fairy tale will happen to me. Time will let you know a person and I hope I dun get sick from that.
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| It's no differences cheating ten times or one time. It's about how she thinks toward this kin of behavour. Sex is important, but it's not so important that you have to give up your moral standard to enjoy what all the animals are enjoying. So, I really do not care anymore, and won't even bother to cry for her. This is why I felt I have grown up. She maybe a good friend, but for sure not a good lover.I have finished my mission and didn't disappoint my parents and my relatives. I think this is the most important lesson I have learned in my life. I hope she will find a better one. Of course I hope I will too | | |
| In the end of the story, she finally came back, but you know what? Things have changed, and I dun trust or believe in her anymore, so what's the point of being together? It's really painful now, but I rather being painful now than being stressful later about her flirting with other guys. Of course, I really want to be with her, and can't deny the feeling towards me, but like my best friends said time will heal, like my mum said, have to get over her and focus on my study. The most important thing now is to finish my study, logically I know this very well, but what? Emotionally, I want to be accompanied by someone, especially her. It's a though call, but I made it anyway. I know in the long run, I won't regret anymore because I have seen what kind of person she really is. But still, in the short run, like run, it's painful, pain in the ass that my heart kept thinking about her, still cares about who she is seeing and how she will become. It's tough......even feel more miserable than the time that I want her back but she refused. Now that I have to chance to take her back, but I gave this up, how would this change happen. After all, it did really happen. I hope I could move on with my life and live my life on my own.Step forward but dun look backward.!!
Add oil, hope god could give all the energy and the faith that I need.
A long blog since last year March
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| I thought I was so lucky and had lived in a fairy tale for half year, one semester, but everything is a lie and is over. I felt so sorry to myself and also to my family, I thought I could bring them fortune, but I was just too naive and didn't realize and know what I am actually doing.....to be continued
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| today I was supposed to work buy since my car broke down on me I was substituted by the other guy. Cool, isn't it? I slept till four, what a lazy pig! But I allow myself for being that lazy because I have to learn to relax. An hour after I woke up, I started studying my discrete math which seems tricky to me. I tried to make my learning process different from the previous ones. I spread it as long as I can so that I have time to think and relief my stress. Now I am at my aunt's place, enjoying a delicious meal and then I will continue my study. Hope this will really make me feel better. Hope I can enjoy the rest of this semester.
To tell the truth, it is really bored staying here. You would find nothing to do even of you have plenty of spare time. That's the only thing I hate about sf. To be continued | | |
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